be A-live even when you are A-fraid - Carrie Lovejoy

My feet meet the earth

But I don't seem to feel them

Am I falling, or flying?

Birds sing despite the lingering patches of icy snow

Is it winter, or spring?

The sun ducks behind a cloud and then peers out the other side, touching my face

The weather dabbles with its decision

Or indecision?

Must it be

Either, or?

Less, or more?


I loved seeing you, she said

You looked gorgeous

But did she?

See me, I mean

The pain behind the glitter

The heartbreak beyond the cheerful pattern of my babydoll dress with the magenta tights and the calf high boots?


Nature says to me

"Look into my mirror, child,

Lean in close and see

You are the storm

And the sun

The earth and the sky

The calm

And the chaos

The ecstacy

And the ache

If I can hold all of those things in one magnificent container, so too can you.  Be all of it.

Ignite every speck of stardust within your soul, and be brilliant.

Be kind.

Be intoxicating, and too bold, and too much.

Be erotic and eclectic, and breathe in life- breathe that life into the world around you.

Be awkward, and artistic and alive - be A-live even when you are A-fraid.

Trust me. Trust you.

Carrie wonders how she was born with legs instead of roots, but accepts that it's because she is here to transcend the gap. She is a mother, a lover, a sister, and a weaver of words. A Rite of Return initiate, Carrie has claimed her space as a whole woman creating a peaceful and stable future for herself and her children with the help of her community. 

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